What Am I Lyrics by Chino Xl

What Am I Lyrics

    Yo i don't even know what the vibe is kid
    All these different things seperatin us
    It got me walkin this fence man
    And i don't even know what side i'ma fall on b
    Can't see it

    Well i'm a zebra y'all
    ("half puerto rican, half black, but you don't speak spanish")
    Don't call me zebra y'all
    ("half puerto rican, half black...")

    Now how old are you?

    About six, on my bmx, doin tricks
    Back to middlesex with a couple of poor white trashy brats
    Everything was coochie crunch till it was time for lunch
    They said to wait in the back, they said that pops ain't like black
    See where i was the population's mostly white
    Ain't it?
    They wanna see you jiggaboo with your
    Face painted
    Be brought home by one of their daughters and their fathers
    Fainted
    They want to see you a failure so i never
    Became it
    Light-skinned, showed them lead, curly-headed
    Called me names, i was different, i was gifted, they made me ashamed
    Found out that i'm a different shade when i'm in the second grade
    Abe lincoln's play, they want me to portray a slave
    My momma's face went pale she looked like she wanted to puke
    Now that i know the truth i'd rather play john wilkes booth
    Although my family came and bitched and in the play my role was switched
    My grandma told me i was fixed my problems wasn't fixed
    My family seen my views of the world distort
    Moms last resort, she decided we would move to newark
    I took a deep breath leaving everything i knew behind
    The country air the green grass and my piece of mind
    Harassed by white cops on our way we're pulled out our car
    Mistook my mom for joanne chessimar (?) now i'm really scarred

    <<chorus>>

    What am i, i'm confused, can't decide
    What am i who am i what am i
    Black or white, i can't identify
    What am i who am i what am i
    I'm confused, can't decide
    What am i who am i what am i
    Black or white, i can't identify
    What am i who am i what am i

    Culture shock, newark's a far cry from middlesex
    Broadly called projects, black eyes, regrets
    Torn lives, i've never seen so many people depressed
    My mental gets molested, physical takes violent threats
    Stress, walkin home from school's like a terrorist test
    I learned blacks could be racist too, somehow still i felt i was blessed
    Even my teachers called me half-breeds and all of that
    I was scared of livin here but also scared of movin back
    See where i was before i was the darkest thing they ever saw
    They figured that i'm black, white around
    They kick me like a soccer ball
    White people didn't accept me
    Fuck you
    Black people didn't accept me
    Fuck you
    Puerto ricans didn't accept me
    Fuck you
    Diggin researchin my identity it gots me goin cuckoo

    "i'm the yellow nigga right?
    I'm tired of that. i am not passing, i am black!
    I was born black, i live black,
    And i will die, proud to be called black!"

    So now i'm goin "hey niggaz" at niggaz that say chino's not black
    They come to my house and tell my african mother that
    In fact causin crackup they said no sister would attract to me
    These same brothers got perms to get their hair like mine was naturally
    Descrimination, affects a brother's education
    Hands up in black history class, they never called on my ass
    But wait, growin at a rapid rate
    I digest their hate, it's family
    Found out my father left me when i'm three
    Dealt with felt if i knew my spanish family they'd help
    Every mixed person i met they mostly just kept to themself
    We moved to east orange i set it off talent shows staring
    A high yellow nigga's progression, my flavor's pouring

    <<chorus>>

    Now how old are you?

    About nineteen lettin off my steam
    Used to be a punchin bag, but now i stomps, in hip-hop fiend
    Now i get the goya jokes, menudo jokes, rico suave jokes
    But females rush me and the mc's steal up all my quotes
    See what i lacks in melanin i makes up wit adrenalin
    Your weak attempts at blemishin my mixed heritage i'm treasurin
    Don't need caucausian acceptance just that of a human being
    Laughed and spit at i don't represent cause i am not spanish speaking
    Now how many dues must i pay to win
    You're angry and you're stressin that opression
    But you judge me by the skin i'm in when
    Adam clayton powell's, light-skinned and
    Farrakhan the brother's, light-skinned and
    Elijah muhammad's also, light-skinned
    Discrimination from my own peoples is making my temper go thin so
    So stop playing me slight saying my song's aight instead of hype
    Don't called me red-boned, or light and bright and damn they're white
    I ain't no zebra, ain't no half of original either
    Don't call me mulatto i stab you with a broken bottle
    Callin your brother oreo get off it yo, now tom consider
    He could be like chino xl, a yellow ass nigga

    <<chorus>>

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